Yuki

I am so sick. It's been over 2 weeks now since my mildest symptoms. Bluche hates me. I've been enjoying the last 19 years healthily 'til I came to this winter wonderland. I am even more acquainted with the school staff and the doctors more than my peers. Geez...

I've been thinking and keeping this inside for so long, but it's getting to a point that I can't help but blurt it out on my personal blog, not for the whole world to criticize and discuss but to organize this whole mess swirling together with my neuro (however you spell its plural noun...): I feel like I'm one of the few last ones of my generation who's still single. Of course I'm not comparing myself with thousands of millions of those nineteen-year-old people across the globe, but it still feels awkward when I look around: my high school bastards, my current colleagues; one of them even got engaged to be probably married next year!! Being the one who sees the cup half-full, I still can't insist wondering if there really is something which creates these little obstacles preventing me hand-in-hand with someone? Certainly I'm not desperate for a boyfriend, I'm just blaming my natural hormones that are pushing me to seek for the opposite sex: basic instinct. That was a pretty good excuse, right?
Right! I've been babbling again. I really need to turn in for now, dreaming and weaving my blending emotions and self-phylosophized ideas about this stupid but always been there question:
What is love?

The snow is still falling outside.

Setting On A New Journey

Yes, I am returning to that peaceful village of which name is not even on Swiss map. Yay!

I'm feeling damn bored and confused and bored. Did I mention "bored"?

Hey my perfect cousin, sorry for complaining so much about everything but I'm not as perfect as you are, and since the only things that can relieve me from this everlasting boredom are endless complaints, what else shall I do? Making this place full of alcoholics and party animals more amusing and livable? Since one-sided complaints won't harm any one's well-being, it's OK to revise them once in a while, isn't it?
Well things will turn out right for me at the end, as usual, as I know it should be. So be it!

Dad's advise of going to English-speaking countries to have an internship delight me. Hmph so it's not a matter of distance and finance, but an opportunity of learning and exploring. I sure got all those DNAs from him. =D

Everything will be all right! Everything will be all right!
And I'm never alone. I'm not the only one.

So everything will definitely be all right.

Cheers!!!

New Year. New Hope. New Life.

Today is 01.01.10. Finally another new year has come, the last one of the first decade of this century. So much has happened in 2009, more than I've ever recalled in my over 19 years of life: happy moments, unexpected and continuous unfortunate events, slapping truths, heart-breaking realization... For all those to occur in just a year seems too much. I was resentful at first, but gradually becoming more accepting and, indeed, grateful. I have changed a great deal. I'm not any more perfect than the old me, but one thing for sure: I've grown. My immature, limited ways of thinking has been replaced by that wiser insight of a more thoughtful mind. I learned how to care more about the ones I love from even trivial matters, I think further away in case the worst circumstances appear, I live unselfishly but never forget about myself. I speak the truth and not afraid of them...

Another year. Probably another me. Who knows? We never know! Only Him who decides it all knows. That's what makes life interesting. May 2010 be way better and happier than 2009 and may love be spread wider all over the world and deeper inside every heart.

Happy New Year everyone!

Criminology and Immigration

Ooh~ that sounds like an article taken from a university research or whatever. Hopefully not. The fact is that I just talked to my truly good friend Benjamin. It's been so long!! Miss him so much! We talked a lot mostly 'bout immigrating to Canada and his major. Crime investigation is exciting isn't it? It sounds almost like being a detective, so cool! I'm glad that I could talk to him, it's always nice talking to him anyway.

Now when I think about it, to be able to have somebody of whom you can find comfort in conversations is such God's love. I know so many people due to my life of traveling around but only one tenth out of that great number is considered as my friends, and only another one third out of that one tenth can bring me that cosy feeling of being shared and listened. And I treasure that. Greatly.

When I roamed around and almost killed my own eyes with those tonnes of words about regulations and requirements and whatsoever, it wasn't until I completed the eligible questionnaire that I realized I have been, indeed, unconsciously serious about immigrating to this country which I love so much as if it's my real hometown. It may be a bit early, but it's always good to plan things ahead isn't it?

Once there's a will, there's a way. Now I can finally have a pretty determining goal to motivate myself to achieve other accomplishments, I don't feel so aimless anymore.

No one knows about the future, right?

Birthday and Madeleine

I stayed up a bit late yesterday to create this for a friend's birthday. How funny it is, my ex-crush turned out to be one of my few very very good friends in that isolated world. But I'm glad, he's a really good man despite the fact that we "hate" each other so much to the point that we consider ourselves each other's long-life enemy. Gonna be very sad once you graduate sooner than expected next year Brazilian! It's damn boring on that Alps. Nah~

Rain. Diarrhea. Couldn't hang out with Bambie. Feeling a bit guilty. Sleeping too much again. Shoot!

The Madeleines from Brodard are excellent, as always...

No "hình minh hoạ" today since I already have this colourful e-card thingy~

Make a Smilebox slideshow

The Mess

I am frustrated.

Nothing goes well today. I was determined to get up early and do lots of things but ended up rolling back and forth the whole width of my bed 'til noon. This is the 2nd time already. I hate me!

I've spent approximately 3 hours yesterday to create a new blog for our class, feeling excited! It wasn't just 3 hours since creating a blog on blogger is slightly more complex than that. Sending an invitation to create a Gmail account to our class's email (which turned out to be unnecessary later on), using my own German mobile number and set its location to be in Germany as well in order to receive the code since Vietnam still doesn't support that service, designing the blog basic layout, creating a note on FB and tag everyone there to inform them about it... I even dreamed this morning that when I woke up and turned on my laptop, that blog would be full of comments and new posts, but no, not at all!

How disappointing when people didn't even give it a try and already conclude that it'd just be another failure, a waste of time. I was so mad but still tried to calm myself and persuade them. And guess what? Facebook doesn't let me do ANYTHING today! No comments, no reply, no editing, not even accepting friends!!!

*sigh* People... What a day!

The Beginning

Monday, 14th Dec, 2009

My first post. It's been a while. Veteran blogger eh?

Feeling awful for wasting my precious time at home today. Gotta move my fat *ss tomorrow, that's for sure! Only 1 month left at home... *sigh*

I don't wanna go back to Switzerland... Is this my 102nd time mentioning this? Or 103rd?

Anyway, gotta thanks Onion for persuading me creating this lil' babe. Now I can spill (or puke) my heart out, juz like before.

That's it for today! Have spent 3 hours creating our class blog! Turning in now! Good night people!